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Thank you for being here. Every purchase, every review, every share — it keeps my pen moving and my stories alive. Below are my published works. If even one line has ever felt like it was written for you, this is your chance to carry it home. 💛
📖 Featured Book
📚 Book 1
I Was There, But I Was Never Home
By Ayaan · 2026 · Literary Fiction / Memoir
The book that will make you feel seen in ways you didn't know you needed — because it tells the truth that most love stories are too afraid to tell. That sometimes, the person you love with every cell of your body is also the person quietly dismantling everything you are.
It begins beautifully — a boy, a girl across a hallway, golden afternoon light in a small-town school in Durgapur, West Bengal. Two months so perfect he builds his entire identity around them. Then she disappears. No goodbye. No reason. Just silence.
What follows is five years of waiting, three years of manipulation, a COVID-19 lockdown that turns into the darkest season of his life, and a suicide attempt that almost ended the story before it could be written. But it wasn't. And this book is why.
THIS BOOK IS FOR YOU IF...
- You've ever loved someone who made you feel crazy for loving them
- You've stayed loyal to someone who only stayed convenient
- You've smiled in public and fallen apart at 2 AM
- You've ever needed someone to say "You are not too much. You were just with the wrong person."
Written in the spirit of Kshama — forgiveness that doesn't erase the wound, but finally cuts the chain. Some books you read. This one reads you.
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📚 Book 2
I Will Love You As Long As Life Lets Me
By Ayaan · Romance, Philosophy · Paperback · ₹200
This is not a self-help book. Self-help implies something is broken. Nothing here is broken — everything here is working exactly as it should: beautifully, chaotically, and often against our best intentions.
This is a book about the gap between the promise and the reality. Between "I will love you as long as you let me" and "I don't see this going anywhere." Between the cathedral you built in your head for someone and the rubble you're standing in now, wondering when you even had the time to build it.
This book will not tell you how to protect yourself from love. It will remind you why you never wanted to.
THIS BOOK IS FOR YOU IF...
- You've ever grieved something you couldn't fully explain to anyone else
- You felt too much about something that "wasn't even really a thing"
- You keep falling in love despite the evidence — because you've decided, correctly, that the alternative is worse
- You need someone to sit with you in the feeling, not fix it
For the person who has loved recklessly, honestly, and completely. This one is yours.
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A Note from the Author
This book was written in the in-between — between grief and gratitude, between 2 AM tears and 6 AM resolve. If it finds its way to you, it was always meant to. Thank you for being here. Truly.
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